Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Done

It always feels great to push the send button after writing for days and 6,000 words latter! I am still dealing with being angry over injustice, however like pushing send concerning the essay I am doing the same with the pain pushing send. Only God can deal with this ache.

One more paper to write before summer ends...I actually enjoyed writing this one and I made the deadline. Yeah!

I might write a poem...later.

Sunday, July 29, 2007

Silent Cry's of Mercy

My heart is heavy concerning events that I can not even talk about because no one will understand or if I do tell, they will walk away leaving in the wake, a deeper pain of empty.
I desire to walk in celebration not in the presence of grief.

So...

Here I am telling the world. How foolish is that!

However, I continue to pray this will end...God have mercy.

If not,

I pray God will allow me to have greater amounts of His strength, grace and protection as I travel through the suffering.

Thank you Lord, for the word picture of hiding self under the protection of Your wings; here is were I will place my hope...

My heart is still crying silent cry's of mercy and I still have a paper due on Tuesday...LOL

Pain

“If one member suffers, all the members suffer . . .”
1 Corinthians 12:26a

Pain entered into our midst
causes were numerous

Blame took hold
but who do you accuse?
God?
yourself?
of course not!

Suffering is not easily understood
no matter the reason

only a few
are willing to stop
extending grace
to feel outside of self.

This world is full of anguish

can you see it?
can you hear it?
are you willing
to look into suffering?

walking in grace means:

looking at another
deciding to see
learning to listen
letting go of self
asking yourself…

is the next step I take
going to help another?

Grace and love
are never the easy way

pain within another
no matter how I hide it
or avoid it

still affects me

teardrops are falling
into stained glass bottles.

2007-07-29Robin Sloboda

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Prayer Journey


Last weeks prayer journey project sparked a new desire in those who participated, to journey out into their communities to impact them through prayer on a more regular basis. The blessing that has been given to me is that others have picked this up, have owned it and are going into communities praying with insight.

Earlier today, a friend and I went out for our own journey, what a beautiful morning, God’s goodness was all around us. When I arrived home I looked up the word good in the dictionary, here is what Webster’s has to say: Good: effective, efficient, beneficial, valid, real, healthy or sound, enjoyable, pleasant, reliable, thorough, virtuous, devout, kind, dutiful, proper, correct, skilled, considerable, well.
I believe, these words describe our God perfectly! We also enjoyed the benefits that come from walking and friendship…

If you have not been out on a prayer journey into your community, why not try it? Ask God where to go, who to take, how to go and to open your eyes and ears to the world around you as you journey out. When you pray on site with insight it is amazing how the spirit will lead you to pray for specific needs in your community. I encourage anyone who reads this post to try it and I would love to hear how it went and what insights the Lord presented.

Some sites to check out to prepare for the journey:

http://www.ewhbc.com/Prayer/Prayer_Walking_GUIDE.htm
http://www.arministry.org/prayerwalk_guide.pdf
http://www.waymakers.org/
http://sub.namb.net/evangelism/prayer/tps/pocket_guide.asp

My body feels refreshed from an hour of walking and being in God’s presence as we prayed.
Did you know you can even pray in the rain!
“The heavens are Yours, the earth also is Yours; The world and all its fullness, You have founded them.” Psalm 89:11

Monday, July 23, 2007

What I am Reading


What I am Reading

What I am Reading

House Keeping

Finally, a name change along with a new music box and my favorite poetry stops. Changing the skin was considered, but the simplicity of this skin still works.

A question asked in my devotional time today was:

"What is my challenge today?"


Here are my responses:

Not to let emotions rule, but to seek God for guidance throughout this day.

Stop procrastinating, write my paper and enjoy the process.

Embrace the challenges that come today and walk in joy.

Love and understand the difficult people in my life.

Sunday, July 22, 2007

The Trees are Dying

The response I get from many is it is a natural process, yes, that might be so, but it is an awful thing to see the forest dying. The land is groaning...

One more, but the trees are in the way!


My heart was full of sadness, concerning the state of the forest in B.C. The mountain pine beetle has done a good job of killing many trees. I would love to write a poem reflecting how it affected me as we drove through hundreds of miles of dead forest. One thing for sure is it is a sign of the spiritual state of the times. The trees are showing the result; the tree to the left is revealing the start of the decay.
Over the next six weeks writing on the blog will be very quiet and slow. I have been procrastinating to long concerning my papers (one is due July 31, and the other August 31)--they need to take priority and I desire to embrace the learning process. Summer has been very healing to my soul this year.

Friday, July 20, 2007

View: The Drive Home from B.C.


Watch

"I will call upon the LORD,
who is worthy to be praised:
so shall I be saved from my enemies…

The LORD lives;
and blessed be My rock;
and let the God of my salvation
be exalted."
(Psalms 18:3,46)

Watch

signs all around, can you see?
can you hear? do you care?

she is a harlot among nations
apathetic in nature,
her heart is cold,
her body asleep,
supplications are only a whisper.

let grace surround completely
hedging in Shimon Peres to see truth,
desiring good
not corruption
that has drawn others underground
towards darkness. Keep Golan Heights,
ancient Bashan, part of Israel – forever.

“Peace, Peace,” they shout,
when there is none to be found.

Wake up, wake up,
wash your eyes
watch and pray,
watch and pray.

Fulignous colour looms over the sun,
causing the silver moon not to shine,
stars have lost there twinkle
blinded by false light.

Wake up, wake up,
wash your eyes
watch and pray,
watch and pray.

change is drawing near,
hold the battle axe up high
letting it shine forth glory.


July 20, 2007 – R.Sloboda

"It is of the LORD'S mercies
that we are not consumed,
because His compassion's fail not.

They are new every morning:
great is Your faithfulness."
Lamentations 3:22-23

Can a corrupt tribunal have any part with you, one which frames evil into law? They conspire against the just and condemn the innocent to death. But the Lord has become my stronghold, and my God the rock of my trust. He will turn their wickedness back upon them and destroy them in their own malice; the Lord our God will destroy them.
Psalm 94:20-23

In the evening, in the morning, and at noonday,
I will complain and lament, and he will hear my voice.
Psalm 55:18

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

A Time of Healing

Recovery has been like a dream
one moment all seems real
wrapped entirely in normal

then without warning
invisible hands that heal
escort deeper into warm
tranquil waters of compassion,
care, comfort, and calm

releasing a time of rest
from all
that once had total focus

to a place of lingering longer
in a daydream. Where
revival of being, begins…


July 18, 2007
R.Sloboda

A musing from my deck...

Morning songs rise with the sun
announcing a new day is beginning

along with this new day
arises
second chances...

second chances for:

healing relationships
changing old habits
learning new ones
but most importantly
learning to embrace
the love of God

the decision
and choice
is really all mine...

r. sloboda

At 6:30 on a mid July morning the air warm, the sun starting to wake up, my deck is beautiful and a wonderful sanctuary to experience the presence of God all around. The flowers Murray and I have planted just took off...

we hardly spent much on them, but wow...
have they decided they too love my deck!

I simply love all the colors, and the spirit of life that radiates off of these plants.

Off to work...I go...to love my special friends at the care home.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

One World

Numerous worlds within one
contain diverse faces
each with a similar outline for life.

Fascination with differences
create room for wonder
layered among a smile
and twinkle.

One life tries to understand
and befriend others, only to
experience walls of isolation
from crowded places.

Fear and anxiety,
mixed with different cultures
cause uneasy emotions.

Community is a place to walk
through walls that separate
discovering purpose
and significance.

Linking many worlds within one,
connecting cultures,
breaking down fear,
washing away anxiety,

here hope is found for a dying world.

July 16, 2007, R.S.