Monday, August 03, 2009
A Brain Vacation
July was an extremely crazy, out of control month in my world. With the arrival of a new grandbaby, company, visiting patients in the hospital, deadlines both at work, and academically, I hit a period of needing to pull back. I was asked in a comment last week, “Where are you.” Well, I was hiding. Thank you Sojourner for asking.
My brain decided to take a holiday from the numerous stressors that had build up before, and within the month of July. With this vacation of the brain, the creative process that I needed to write on the blog went completely on hold. Even reading has been an interesting experience, I just could not comprehend what I was trying to understand. Try reading a 600 page Theological book when you are in this place of numbness. I told my husband yesterday, my brain just does not want to click into motion to catch the creative sparrows that flutter around within my mind.
Yesterday, while writing I felt like the imaginative thoughts were flying so fast, yet I just could not catch them to make sense of what needed to be written. With my brain vacation experience, I had the chance to reevaluate what is important and what things need to be completed or released in my life.
I have come to one conclusion: Christ needs to come first, which means more time in God’s word and prayer. If I am feeling overwhelmed with responsibilities, I than need to remember this is a signal it is time to reevaluate my commitments. In the fall, all new ministries and responsibilities will need to be in alignment with bringing balance (time with Christ) not craziness. Changes are coming to my fall schedule.
Blogging for me has been a joy, and brings balance. It is wonderful to meet people from all over the world and to touch others by sharing our life journeys. I am here, just quiet and learning by spending more time at the feet of Jesus. Simplicity is my desire.
I have been writing three daily hard copy pages in my journal, so there are great thoughts to go back to when the time is right. Oh, I need to say that some pages are full with, "How will I ever write three pages?" or "God help me, I have nothing to write."
I will be slow at writing on the blog over the next few weeks, I am still completing over due papers, then Murray and I will be going north to hide from all responsibilities for a week. We both need to turn off the noise.
I have a confession: I seem to be addicted to the craziness of life, and making life simpler is not easy.
Has your life felt overwhelming with responsibilities? How have you taken a break this summer and in what ways are you making life simpler?
Heart Prayer: Jesus you call us to come, follow you, and to experience life the way you desire for us to live. For each person who is reading this post help them to draw near to you and to experience rest for their soul by spending time with you. Thank you that your way is easy and light. Reveal to us what needs to be completed or released from our life. Thank you for these thoughts and the ability to write them down. Jesus I love you and in your name I pray. Amen.
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
Love to all, Robin