Thursday, August 30, 2007

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Preschoolers Thoughts on Aging

What a great day at the care home with all of the hugs and smiles as we exercised and did other activies. My friends at the home have truly gotten into my heart, they are all very interesting people who once had very active lives. It is an amazing gift, to love them all!

I found a flicker site on how preschoolers precieve aging...If they looked at me (only in my fourties) I am sure I am old too! Check out the site

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

A New Friend

My favorite place to pray--where a thin line to heaven is found.

Inspired by the Movies

On Friday, I had a movie binge night! I picked up two movies, “Miss Potter” and “Illusion.” I asked the manager of the store what his thoughts were on the movie "Illusion." His response was, “No one has rented it and he has not watched it,” this intrigued me to take a chance. I am glad I did, for the last two days the story has stayed with me and has had me musing over the plot.

Donald Baines, a legendary Hollywood film director was on his bed dying as a young man interviewed him. As he was answering the questions, he started to have flash backs of the son he never knew, the offspring of a one-night stand. That night while sleeping he was given an opportunity to view different times in his son’s life.

What captured my musings is how tapes run in our minds concerning what we perceive people are feeling towards us or saying about us when in reality the tapes are not true. Baines kept saying, “I did not say that!” or “I would never say that!” But his son thought since his father never wanted to know him that he did not approve of him.

Kirk Douglas played Donald Baines, this was a perfect role for Douglas. This movie resonated in my heart because of working with people in the care home who are in their last days and how they react to those close to them.

From an email devotional here is what Henri Nouwen has to say about dying:

A Grateful Death

When we think about death, we often think about what will happen to us after we have died. But it is more important to think about what will happen to those we leave behind. The way we die has a deep and lasting effect on those who stay alive. It will be easier for our family and friends to remember us with joy and peace if we have said a grateful good-bye than if we die with bitter and disillusioned hearts.The greatest gift we can offer our families and friends is the gift of gratitude.

Gratitude sets them free to continue their lives without bitterness or self-recrimination.

By the way, “Miss Potter” was an absolutely delightful movie! It is going down as one of my top favorites to have a good cry over. I went to bed sobbing—I had my quota of being moved to tears! Thank you Kirk Douglas and Beatrix Potter. Kirk left me with musings to live life well and Beatrix inspired me to be creative.

Please remember that I was the only one to rent the movie "Illusion" and my young adults told me that "Miss Potter" was too sappy. I live life different from the crowd, thank goodness God and Murray love me for my romantic nature!

My prayer is that I will leave behind a legacy of being grateful for the life I have been given and that those close to me will be free from bitterness or self-condemning thoughts that I might cause.

Kirk Douglas is the same age as most of my good friends at Prairie Springs. Some of the most amazing people I know are in their nineties.

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Christmas Music in August???

August and I am listening to Christmas music how strange! Yet, it seems right for the moment.

My media player has been playing random songs, playing is Steve Bell - Feast of the Seasons. Here on the Prairies it has been raining for days. Today felt cold and it was good to use the stove instead of the BBQ.

Fall always brings feelings of family, comfort, and enchantment; this is my favorite season.

Oh night divine, oh night divine, that Christ was born!


Thursday, August 16, 2007


Passage begins alone, yet within a sphere of care
learning to walk through a delusion of emotions,
questions, banks and lawyers, to land face down
in exhaustion. In this place, invisible wings lift up

covered in devotion, strength is poured out entirely
enabling movement forward. Prayers are heard
simply answered causing the Fathers heart to break

crashing down tears, ministering angels surround,
His spirit spreads peace to comfort broken hearts,
closure comes unwanted but essential to move on.

Mari you live so far away I can not see your face or give you a hug, but I can pray and cry tears of love. As this day unfolds, and Marius's body is viewed, my prayer is that God's love will be so thick, that all in the room will know without question that Jesus is there. God protect my friend and her children as they walk through the next few days.

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Unseen Places

Trust takes hold of my soul
totally captivating every part
one step at a time,

into warm waters of love
to hear His whispers
in tranquil dark places.

He has the keys to a hidden abode
that entices me to move towards
unseen places…

going farther into deep darkness

mysteries unravel within caverns
unlocking rusty antique locks
that falsely hold me captive.

Freedom from lies of unredeemed,

to be swept away by His call

escorted into depths unfathomable
within center fires of burning love,
that cover entirely,

causing me to fall, to linger...
to breathe in new life.

Friday, August 10, 2007

Whisper a Prayer

Windows break as fog burst through, drawing
unanswered questions from aching hearts.

All that can be done is to whisper a prayer
through misty moments of luminous stillness.

Love’s spirit is not easy to see always being
poured out with a continuous flow to soothe.

Layered pieces of broken glass, splintered,
scattered across fields of glimmering green.

Words from the old bluesman ring true,
“He will be with you until the deal goes down.”

Death’s sting is final on earth; love rises beyond

what can be precieved, forever without end.

All that can be done is to whisper a prayer

through misty moments of luminous stillness.

Wise Words to Self

On a shore from a distant dream
wispy memories flutter around
surrounded completely by truth

whispering softly to gently draw me in

Live life well before walking through
the unknowing cloud of mystery

choosing a path that leads to eternity
forever covered in love.

In this daydream called life
learn to care deeply, remembering
it is not about you.

Stand firm in what is truth
believing with all your heart
that love conquers all

Reconciliation will be the end
making right what was wrong
letting peace win

As in a twinkle
all has changed nothing is the same
except God’s unfailing love.

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Heartbeat of the Cosmos

The fact that this new age is emerging reveals something basic about the universe. It tells us something about the core and heartbeat of the cosmos. It reminds us that the universe is on the side of justice. It says to those who struggle for justice, 'You do not struggle alone, but God struggles with you.'

Martin Luther King, Jr.

I had to post this quote today, it seemed to touch the core within me.

August is truly here, the morning air has a crispness to it that yesterday morning did not have. It is very strange how the weather changes over night. Another meaning for the word august is: marked by majestic dignity or grandeur. The month of August does have these qualities on the Prairies, everything starts to turn colour, rich reds appear sprinkled with a deep golden.

One more thought: It sure feels good to have finished my assignment on time and to know that through my struggle with injustice, God is with me. My youngest son and I watched a movie on Monday night titled, "The Sin Eater" based on the novel by Francine Rivers. I am sure it was a "b" rated movie, however the plot had me thinking. One idea that stood out was the people turned their backs on sin, ignored it and justice was not pursued.

I believe, I am on a justice theme in my walk with Jesus... my spirit has been truly grieving over the injustice that happens daily in our world.

A verse that is a life verse sure has been in face all week: Micah 6:7b-8 What does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.

It appears easy enough to follow but we have really missed it on this command.